Struggling

I've been struggling with my diet ever since Friday. I've gone off the plan several times and eaten things I shouldn't have, and the scale is showing it. I gained two pounds over the weekend. :(

Today (Wednesday) makes day 43. I've only got to make it 5 more days on 500 calories. I'm trying so hard to make it, I really want to see a few more pounds go. Tuesday morning I weighed 177. I highly doubt I make my goal of 170 by the end of hCG, but I lost 5 additional pounds the first time around when I was on the 21 day phase that follows the hCG. You can eat anything you want, just no starches or sugars for the 21 days. That opens up so many more food choices. I can't wait to have some eggs and bacon!

I'm tickled pink that we were able to get rid of our Treadclimber. We did a swap with a friend. She wanted the Treadclimber and in exchange, we got a treadmill, stationary bike and Total Gym. I started my 5K training from the beginning since the Treadclimber only went up to 4pmh. I'm a little sore, but I'm doing some type of exercise every day. On the days I'm not doing the training, I either walk on the treadmill or put in one of my Walk Away the Pounds DVD's.

I am excited to take my measurements in a few days. I can tell I've really lost some inches this time around, and Ross agrees!

I plan to do one more 21 day round of hCG this Summer, probably starting after the 4th of July. I can't believe how good it feels to be smaller and know that I'm living a healthier lifestyle. I think food will always be a constant struggle for me, I was just telling Ross last night that I felt like there was a huge tug of war going on inside me, my desire to be skinny and healthy and my love for all foods fattening and unhealthy. For a few days, the food won, today, I'm winning!

I've come so far from where I used to be and I have no desire to go back there. I think that will help keep me motivated. Plus, buying a new wardrobe is not cheap and I intend to get rid of anything I have that is too big, so it won't be as easy to just slip back into the "fat" clothes. I'm so excited to get the new jeans and bras I ordered over the weekend! I'm trying my first pair of Silver jeans, I've heard lots of good things about them.

I'll post my final weight and inches lost in a few days.